Moving Day

It's finally here. After 12 long days I finally get to live in the same house as my husband tomorrow! The moving starts at 9am and I can hardly wait to get him back. Here are some pictures of our "Good Bye House Day".

To my baby girl.

Eden,

I love you so much more than you will ever know, but I promise that I will spend everyday trying to let you feel my love as much as humanly possible. I know that these last two weeks have been so hard on you. One day everything was fine and you were living in the only house you've known since you were born. The next day mommy was rushing to the hospital and you were suddenly having to move to Nana's early so that I could stay on bed rest. I can't imagine how hard and unsettling that must have been and I am so sorry. I know it's been so hard waiting for Daddy and the doggies and the kitty to come live with us again; but they will be here in three short days. Mommy hasn't been able to do some of the things we use to do, and I know that is so tough. I miss the things we use to do too. I miss giving you "uppies" and taking you places. I miss being able to go to the pool with you. I miss the normalcy that we had created for you. I know right now it seems like forever, but it's only ten weeks. Soon after baby Judah gets here, safe and sound I will be able to give you your "uppies" and take you fun places and do all of the things we use to do. It's going to be a hard transition, but mommy is so proud of you and how much of it you have handled. Tonight you had a really hard time falling asleep. You cried for an hour and forty minutes, and it broke my heart, but I understand that we might have a few of those nights while you get use to things and that is ok. I hope that when you are older and read this you will remember the good times and that these hard times will be just a far off distant memory. You will always be my baby girl, my first born and nothing and no one can replace that. I have treasured every moment I've gotten to spend with you for the last two and a half years. I love you, and I love being your mommy.

Love,

Mommy

7/21/2010

Successful Day

This was a great day. I actually feel like I got a lot done from "bed". Now that I've gotten more use to this bed rest thing, I can more easily play with E and still be sitting down. I even got to sit at the kitchen table and watch my mom help E make cupcakes!

3 great things from this day....

1. Tim brought over E's stuff from the old house and we got to set up her new room, she was so excited. Tim told her to close her eyes and then he started bringing her stuff in and told her to open her eyes as he said "surprise"! She was beyond excited. I haven't seen her this happy since all of this started. I think it will bring a sense of calm to this storm, just seeing all her familiar things again and having a place of her own again.

2. I got some great time with just E and I. We got some serious snuggling in. I felt good enough to sit at the table while she painted this amazing picture of the ocean... complete with a sun in the sky, blue clouds and rain drops b/c she said it was a "stormy day". Then she put boat stickers on blue lines she had painted for the waves. It is now proudly stationed on the refrigerator.

3. I passed my 3 hour glucose test which means no gestational diabetes. Praising God for that news. I'm not sure I could've handled another hurdle right now.

Only 5 more days until the big moving day and Tim, E and I are all under one roof again.

"Sentenced" to bed rest

30 weeks pregnant.

Until my life came crashing to a halt last tuesday I was working full time as a nanny and part time as a photographer and caring for my 2 1/2 year old.

I was busy all the time.

We were in the middle of a move.

Now my sole job is resting. Resting to give this baby the best chance at life. And Eating. Eating and Resting.

I cried for the first 3 days of hearing the dreaded words "bed rest".

A few things you should know about me...

I am the youngest child.

Because of that I have never been good at entertaining my self or being by my self; I always had my brother and sister around.

I am not good with quietness.

I just turned on music after realizing how quiet my room was.

I frequently say "I need stability".

I don't like relying on other people.

I hate asking for help.

I feel more comfortable when I am in control of things.

As you can imagine bed rest has pretty much pulled me right out of my comfort zone. I think that is right where God wants me. So here I am, in full surrender. I'm out 10 weeks of pay checks. I don't know what the future holds, but for the first time I feel this overwhelming since of peace. Peace that surpasses all understanding, as if I've been swallowed up by God's love for me and the life he placed inside me. Right now my job is to rest for the baby, yet somehow through that I have finally found the ability to rest in the Lord. It took me 24 years, but I got here. Sure their will be hard days ahead...

but I choose to cling to Him.